MY GRANDMOTHER

She died and her dying is a big trouble for me. I dont know what I want anymore. No one is there for. She is the one who is always there for me but now she is gone, I feel so alone. I hope she is still here. Wala na akong kakampi. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Konti na lang, aayaw na ko. I MISS YOU SO MUCH MOMMY, bakit ba kasi iniwan mo ako yan tuloy tignan mo nangyari sakin. Wala na. Kung sana hindi mo ko iniwan kaagad e di sana kahit papaano matino ako diba. Nakakainis ka naman kasi. Wala na akong kakampi. Alam mo bang wala akong mahingan ng tulong ngayon samantalang dati noong nandito ka pa lagi ka lang nandyan para sakin. Ngayon sino gagawa noon. Wala na diba? Bakit kasi nangiiwan ka e di sana sinama mo na lang ako. :(

It’s Complicated

I met this guy because he is a friend of my friends and a friend of my ex-boyfriend that I used to love very much. Well, I still love my ex-boyfriend but when I kissed this guy, I just felt so secured. My heart is beating fast and I cant stop thinking about our kissing session. Yes, we are a little drunk and we aren’t that sober but I can say that he knows what we are doing and it is just so memorable. During the drinking session his been flirting with me but I’m avoiding it but after the drinking mode with friends we all lie down. Some in bed and I lie down on the floor and someone lie down beside me and it was him. He was saying a lot of things but due to sleepiness and drunkenness I hardly remember it all but I do remember when he told me that “nagaalala ako sayo” w/c means he is worried because I vomit so much in the bathroom. He asked me if he can kissed me and he even say please and BOOM we kissed. I never thought of my ex-boyfriend after that night. I thought of him every now and then, checking my facebook account if he will add me but till now, there is no friend request from him. I want to add him bad but I dont want him to think that Im such a desperate. He doesnt even bother to get my number or if he has it already, he doesnt even bother to text or call me. Since that night I cant forget of him and obviously he forgets about me so just few minutes ago I visited his facebook account but there is no much post so I visited his twitter instead and I saw his tweets…. "MISS KO NA SIYA" and "Darating din yung taong para sayo. Maghintay ka lang. Kapag alam mong hindi na pwede, wag mo na ipilit. Dahil lahat ng pinipilit, masakit."


I know I dont love him that much yet but I know for sure that I like him.
As in totally like him.
Should I do the first move on being in-touch w/ him.
He flirted that night and I dindt flirt back but I kissed him, we kissed. Wasn’t that enough? Should I make a clear statement that I like him first but Im scared. I dont want to be rejected by someone again. I already felt the pain of love and I think he likes someone else. I dont wanna be a rebound. I dont want to be an option again.


"I WISH IM JUST LIKE OTHER GIRLS WHO IS HAPPILY IN LOVE"

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miley cyrus rock

miley cyrus rock

Each time we don’t say what we wanna say, we’re dying.

— Yoko Ono  (via schlafwandel)

I have his heart and that is enough.

I have his heart and that is enough.

mother and son best moments ever

mother and son best moments ever